When you finally feel like you are good at something, something that makes you different and special and then find out that some many more people are better that you
and instead of being great, you feel like all you do is beaten by someone else.
I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people, because I am always improving, learning new things and everyone once wasn't as good as they are now, but its hard not to put myself down and not see my self at being good at anything lately.
Just a little emotional, depressed bit I am going through lately, maybe I should eventually put up some depressing poetry I made for some of my characters along time ago up, give someone something actually interesting to read other than my rants, depression, stress, and other things no one ever cares about or ever reads, I never really ever read Journals or look at Polls my watchers make except on rare occasion. And in having so few watchers myself I doubt anyone cares even to look.
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Also very stressed, school, home, it feels like I just want to give up on everything. I feel like crawling into a hole and never wanting to see the light of day again. Too much stuff pressing on me at once, assignments, responsibilities, arg.... Sometimes it feels like I jusy want to run away from it all, go hide, crawl off some where and die.